Slumber (Poem)

 I watch you die in my slumber

The number of you that perished under

My own hand.  The demands were great

Moving like the sound of thunder surrounded by the hate For our foes. 

In the throes of the conflict that drove my aches to be perfect.  

My service on a level above reproach, but i failed you.  They assailed you and I could do

Nothing.  I did what was done and now i run from your memory.  

But it finds me.

I hear your screams in the silence.

All the violence that took you in after the mileage of your journey.

The seemingly endless journey to your demise.

I see through your eyes 

and I cry tears of self-hatred and despise me 

despite my efforts to remain present.  

The moments I live became disgusting in my brain, 

Living in vain When you perished with my name under. 

When I close my eyes, I watch you die in my slumber